Samar provided us with feedback on the addiction to recovery model by testing if he could use it to trace his pathway to recovery.
Samar started using weed and, as this became more regular, he was introduced to heroin by neighbourhood friends. When his parents noticed his withdrawal symptoms, they took him to the doctor and he was given medication that helped suppress the unpleasant effects. Samar tried to quit heroin twice through medication, but without success: “I couldn’t get out of it. I will have doctor’s medicine for two days, three days, and after those two, three days when I get a little better, when physical withdrawal little, slowly, slowly things stopped feeling good. The time won’t pass.” With no change of attitude or routine, he quickly relapsed: “My patience level was zero. I got intolerant about things. And the latest thing was that my lifestyle was totally messed up.” Back on heroin, his physical condition got so bad that his parents felt they had no choice but to send him to a rehabilitation facility. While there, he focused on the positive messages from experienced addicts-in-recovery: “I go after people who were like me but today are living their life nicely. I started following those people’s footprint, how they did the first initial years.”
After completing the programme, although Samar had been highly motivated to quit, after a short period of abstinence he started using again: “After going out I have not got those things. Those empty spaces have not filled up where the society cannot accept me and those things somewhere keep me away from others. So after doing like this I used again where again the same circle was repeating.” During his time in rehab, he learned that it is even harder to stop using after a relapse. Hence, he was quick to realise the dangers, and after two-and-a-half months, returned to treatment: “I just called them immediately saying that I have relapsed and they said ‘It’s okay’ […] I told my family members as well. They said ‘’It’s good. If you want to go, then go.’'” At the time of interview, Samar had been in recovery for one year one month and assists others in their recovery journey.Back